I imagine anyone who has an Extraordinary Experience and become so much more aware of their own distance from perfection, might ask that same question, thinking: Why would the Lord of the Universe give graces and miracles to such a flyspeck on a clean wall as me?
But then, we also so often ask, when afflicted by life: why me? What did I do? I think the answer is the same.
Job, represented as a really great person of faith and devotion, when so sorely afflicted, finally asked God, WHY ME?
- Then the LORD addressed Job out of the storm and said:
- Where were you when I founded the earth? Tell me, if you have understanding.
- Have you ever in your lifetime commanded the morning and shown the dawn its place...?
- Do you know the ordinances of the heavens; can you put into effect their plan on the earth?
- The LORD then said to Job: ~
- Will we have arguing with the Almighty by the critic?
I used to believe God granted to me some kinds of Grace because I'm a spiritual moron. Kinda like a mule: you have to whack upside the head with a 2x4 to get his attention. (Not really, it's just an expression.) But even that is pride, like I am owed an explanation and if God hasn't provided one, I should give it to myself....
Does the eagle fly up at your command to build his nest aloft?
No, Sir. No it does not.
- I have dealt with great things that I do not understand; things too wonderful for me, which I cannot know.
- I had heard of you by word of mouth, but now my eye has seen you.
- Therefore I disown what I have said, and repent in dust and ashes.
I'll just stick to telling my story. By Your leave, of course.
Job excerpts from chapters 38-42